this shall be one of my most truthful posts...

this week was terrible for me.
many things hit me hard, and i realised i really need to buck up.
time for a change in my attitude i guess.
i've been tryin to convince everyone including myself that things turned out the way they were because of many other reasons but who am i trying to kid..
the problem really lied with me.

what mr sim and coach said are very true.
i din put in enough effort, i haven tried my best.
dats why i let some people down...
i told my mum i did badly for my math just like everybody else, but i din tell her its because of my own laziness that caused the dip in my math results.


thanks girls, for being there.. esp ytd!

if say im given a task to complete by a deadline, do u tink im capable of that?

if you think its a yes almost immediately, then thanks.
if you think its a no... i feel that u only know me on the surface.
u think im slack n irresponsible,
i know i cant blame u entirely since i do have a slack attitude afterall.

but my point here is that..
im disappointed to know that even those whom i thought understand me very well doesnt even have faith in me at all.
to put it simply, i feel that u dont know me well enough,
is it really that hard to even trust me?
dont say u have good hindsight, because thats really just an excuse.
if i had proven myself to be that lousy in yr eyes, then what for.




i am disappointed, but at the same time things are much clearer to me now.
thanks.. but no thanks. {i dont need your so-called 'trust'}

in the meantime, things really suck. but im lucky to have some other people around:)

4a bbq! - 21st March at Zhong Mou's hse :D {mandarin gardens.}

clinton like cannot pose properly lor, dno why he so AP. hahahaahahah =p

justin is extremely happy.

dont we look like some tourists at some random riverside? hahaha

thanks to jing wei for sending me the photos! :D
credits to huiying for editing the 1st 2 photos {i adjusted the brightness for JUSTIN'S SAKE, pls lor, it turned out that his face darker than mine, just look at the first photo la.}
hahaha

py&yol; wait patiently for my next update =p

updatesss

hello!

been busy with trainings, viwawa-ing and chilling out since MBT!

the math paper was definitely a killer!! hahaa luckily i din put too much focus on it.. if i can get above 20 really considered gud alr! {anybody wants tuition?? preferably dose staying in tamp :D}

went for trng at kallang on... thursday?

hahaa but if u think thats super far alr.. how bout yio chu kang!!?

went there on saturday, needed to get used to the courts there since our comp venue is YCK.

firday, 21st march - LORETTA's BDAY :D

me n zhu watched Rule 1 {&even up till today, i tink bout it every night. hahaa!}

then we went for 4a bbq at zhong mou's hse!

finally met up with some of the a-ers after so long, hahaa many apologies for the previous outings i missed.

LOTATA, hope u enjoyed urself that day! :DD

anyw, photos wud be posted at a later date :)

some random photos,

BYEBYE! :) gud luck for MBT results!

2 more days

had econs paper today.

dont feel very good about the paper.
hahaa... was quite demoralising when i was doing question one, all the answers are lik similar.
den proceeded on the q2, even worse.
repeat the same things agn.
tian ah, econs was supposedly my only hope.

ohwell.
while i was studying history today, my neighbour downstairs started practising STOMP.
from 4+ till 7+. wth.
there's drums whistles pots pans they used almost everything in the hse which are able to produce sounds.
DAMNNNNN FREAKING IRRITATING.
the more i read the words the more infuriated i am.
i really really wanted to go downstairs and ask them to stop.
and the thought of dialling 999 crossed my mind oso!
its nt the first time they do this, started lik a month ago, "once it starts, it never stops."
haahahah
I HATE THE PEOPLE LIVING BELOW ME.
they are like the most inconsiderate bunch, last time the children got pee at the stairways sia, always got one smelly odour...
and its always the dirtiest. hahaa
okok im starting to be biased.

THEY'D BETTER NOT DISTURB ME TMR.
let my voice be heard.

GONECASE ALR LAH.

i found this online gaming website which is super addictive!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
there are games like mahjong, daidee........... which {coincidentally} are my favourites =/
im sorry for sending the link to my haojiemeis.
hahhahahah but really very fun leh :D






ohno i seem hear a voice saying....
"huiying ah huiying,
NI WAN DAN LE!"

=)

hihihihihihihihihihihihi

looks like its been a while since i typed a proper post.

hahaha.. i shall elaborate bout the mayday press conference + signing of concert tix!! :D

met up with tingting on that particular day and headed for meritus mandarin tgt :)

luckily she was one of the winners also! i cant imagine goin thr alone since everybody else have lessons.

okokokok
so.. we were super super excited!!!!!
owe met v veri nice auntie on mrt, gave up seat to her & she 'returned' it me. actually 99% of the time ppl do return the favour, and i guess thats what makes the world go round. okay i dno why im talking bout this but nvm, let's proceed.

hahhahaah it turned out that we were the last 2 among the 20 to reach there...

we reached at 1, but we were told that mayday was coming at 2 -.-

okay, so the scary thing was.... WE SAW FOUR CHAIRS ON THE STAGE ONLY.

hahaha so we were praying that the one absent wasnt ah xing =p

then the reporters/camera crew piled in and they sat at round tables, sort of lik dose banquet tables. while we sat in 2 rows at the back. then the cameramen &all happily put their huge cameras in front of the table where mayday supposed to sit -.- totally blocked our views you mei you.

but it din matter cos me n tingting walked to the side to take a closer look at them :D

hahaha den dasmond pei fen & one more dno who were the emcees for the conference,

then dasmond said "the 20 ppl at the back must be super happy right.. dont tink i dno.. i went on channel u website and saw the cheers okay, later i shall ask some of u to come up and say a few lines."

then my heart stopped beating.

hahaahah, but my heartbeat went back to norm when HE POINTED TO THE ONLY GUY WINNER:DD

hahaha but i tink he damn malu, so he jus say he cant rmb his cheer. hoho

THEN MY MAYDAY FINALLY ARRIVED!!! {minus shi tou}

hahaahah awwwwww so super cute.

everybody started flashing their cameras at them.. hahaha and they were given superband caps -.-

ah xing became veri preoccupied with drawing the cap and ryan{guan you :p} was v quiet initially &haven answered any qns so the rest started to bully him agn. hahaha in the end his answers were very similar to that of monster's, lol i tink his plight is somewhat similar to that of nana's, now you know what i mean :)

hahha after that was grp phototaking session :D

10 fans + mayday = one photo.

hahahaa i was the second batch to go up. so i faster chionged to shake ah xing's hand!!!!

DEN I ACTUALLY STAND BESIDE HIM ONE LOR WAH LAUUU ONE STUPID WOMEN COME SQUEEZE IN BETWEEN.. and tingting oso stand next to her.. so bo bian lah.

hahaha but my lips were lik trembling cos so many cameras in front!!!!!!!!

and i turned out to be super ugly in the pic :(

hai, this one kope from channel u website de. actually got another picture mayday look at the camera, but i lik cmi so im not gona post that.. hahahaha only for my own reference.

oh man, no chance for individual pics :(

BUT NVM, after taking this photo i faster shake AHXING'S HAND AGAIN. haahahahah

then i shake guan you's hand!! then i shake monster's hand!!!!

hahahah dno where ma sha gone so nvr shake his hand.

after that was tea reception, but mayday hang ard for a while go alr. and me n tingting took photos with dasmond n peifen. hahaha went up to dasmond and try to act frenly by telling him we are anglicans too. LOL. dasmond still say zi pai nicer den he help take pics of us. hahaa

both of them quite nice :D

the pics are mostly with tingting so i shall post the pics at a later date.

so we took the free poster and chiong to bugis for the signing of concert tix at 7pm.

lol, u must be thinkin im crazy..... but but but.... i really am crazy.

but im not lik dose crazy until will give them stuff okay, cos i know chances of them keeping it is ZEERO. and i oso nvr book van to chase them all.

hahaa. but at least they have a healthy image of a rockband. ah xing doesnt smoke or drink, shi tou n guan you are happily married n have children. they all have a great sense of humour and are serious when it comes to making music. so i totally adore them!!!

me n tingting started queueing at 3+ cos we had nth better to do. hahaa

tingting actually brought cards so we asked a few more ppl to play with us, china ppl to be exact. hahaa and dats when i realised their way of playing daidee is different from our way, the way they play "oh-beh-som" is also SUPER different. ask me next time and mayb i'd try to explain. hahaha

MD was late and they only reached at 7.45pm. hahaa den they started to bully guan you agn as usual, ask him sing alot of songs. {he's the drummer so most of the time he's stuck to his drums during concerts, so they tryin to give him as many chances to sing to us as possible.} hahaha

after that played games with 2 fans. one fan from malaysia and she don underst chinese but she know how to speak english. so they asked questions in english. hahaaaa.. daaamn funny.

go to xin.sg for chU websites for videos :D

i was within the first 100 in the queue, so my turn came very fast.

hahaah AND IM 100% SURE GUAI SHOU REMEMBERS ME!!!

dont ask me why, the look of his face just confirms that.

he grinned so widely until his eyes closed, just like mine! hahahaah

okokok.

after that me tingting n zhu ate dinner, and by the time we went back they were still signing.

waited for the event to end, only then we felt totally satisfied.

im glad i submitted my cheer. hoho :D &im glad i have tingting to share this joy with.

all in all IT WAS A DREAM COME TRUE! {4th march 2008-din pon for nothing. and also thanks to my parents for being so understanding. hahahha}

26th april- singapore indoor stadium

GUAI SHOU JIA YOU!!!

DREAM COME TRUE(: